Life briefs candle

I met him back in 6 months ago. I left my hard drive with him for like 2 years and I guess I should get that back. It turned out that he didn't watch it. He looks healthy, despite significantly shrunk in shape, compared to the first time I met him back him hometown. I was honored to be able to hook up with him.

Flash back to about 2 years ago. I heard that he was admitted to hospital because of cancer of something. I thought mood is the ultimately cure, so I brought him my porn collection. I asked him to watch when he is free. Basically you're suck in the ward and there is nothing much you can do, so watching stuff is some easy way out la. We never met until 6 months ago to collect my hard drive. In his usual humble way, smiling all the time, shy shy abit. He said he need to sleep early so end our 20 minute talk.

I was quite shocked that he passed away, just like that. Of course it was unannounced. I was sort of stunned by the news. I never get to say good bye or good luck we love you those kinda things to him. I wonder how was it like to just pass away.

The strange things I found was people wrote on his FB wall as if they were wishing him happy birthday. I am not sure what are these people thinking, the person is dead.

When he was still alive struggling with the cancer, he travels with his mom and dad. Based in KL most of the time. Most are straight friends. I didn't recall seeing him with gay friends. He used to be VERY popular, hanging out with the prime gays. 

Again, life is very fragile. You can pass away. Part of the world may hu-ha abit. Then life goes on. I wonder if I can achieve much before it is time for me.

His funeral will be in Semenyih on 17th September. I thought I would wanna go. But I bought ticket back to see mom. I guess it is better to take care of the living instead of the deceased, perhaps the family, but I don't think they know me.

If you're gay and you're still single, who would come to your funeral? I wonder.