Different

Thank mom and dad that they had me born in the late 90s; for when I ngam ngam reached my quarter life, gay developers have already came up with Grindr JackD apa lah to boost the contraceptive industry, especially condoms and lubricants. (I wonder if there is any conspiracy between the contraceptive industry and the gay apps developers? Haha!)

It is the time of the year again. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! So I got back to Sungai Petani for the luxurious 9-day holidays. 

If there were not JackD and free WIFI from my friend’s house, I would not have met this designer guy. Met up in the evening for Hazelnut chocolate at Starbucks (YES! There is one Starbucks outlet in Sungai Petani); and he turned out to be a pretty interesting lad. It turned out that he is not the only gay son in the house; his little brother also sucks dicks.

We had oral sex the next day morning. It felt different. I find it hard to focus. Funny. I am not sure if it is because that I have not having random fun for the past 1 year? Or I kept bench-marking my sex-capade with the best I had? I don’t have feeling towards him?

I guess it is only natural that I have grown this habit of having sex with only one person. I wished to not mention his name at all; I don’t wish to inflict any unnecessary emotion flip-flop. He mentioned that he loved him very much for unknown reasons. It still hurts very much hearing this from him.

I wonder if he felt different having sex with another person?

Do you felt different on the first sex date after break up?

Is sex/lust and love of different entity? Oh I just saw one firefly… I hope something good is coming up. Cross my fingers.