Bullet

(Just a quick one as I am really sleepy darned! But still gatal wanna post this!)

So I recalled he (HEBI) was saying that he was looking for future and had his blueprint done. (When I know that I was like yeah right, blueprint. We will see how lah.)

So he posted this album on his FB on his life, bitter sweet apa lah. Of course I saw places that he won't be going alone. Blah blah at the end all those will lead to his final destination: his castle thingy. (my apology as I am writing on my own language...)

So I thought: Oh so you don't see future in me and you can see future in him. (Yeah I saw this guy's FB profile and I was like Oh... rich kid... But fuck! He is a friend of that graffiti artist! Damned!) Instantly, I felt lost. I have lost to him because he sees future in him; not me.

It screwed my entire day in the office. I went to see the cool lady who her husband came up one day to call off the marriage suddenly. She said: "There must be a reason why he is your ex; because there is no future between you and him! And when people say bad things to you, always know how to turn that bullet, split it into half and counter attack with 2 bullets! Don't feel unworthy! You know your own value!"

No he didn't said that to me to my face; but I am perfectly capable enough to catch the intention of talking about he wanting future to me when he has a bf. Fine lah. Fuck it la.

The reception can see that my face was all black. She said; there is no point being sad when people are happy over there. Just forget about it and find somebody else. He did that all because of jealousy. Don't give in! Stay strong and be happy. Don't let it get into you!

Subang guy was too kind. He came to me. Had dinner and bought expensive cakes for dessert. Spent a lot. But talking to him, having him around me makes a difference; at least I am cared, people concerned about me. I have values.

If he loves me; why he get attached with him so fast? It is easy, because he likes him more than you, SKP.