Angel

Devastated. Sorrow. Confusion. Tears. No more.

The people-see-people-love colleague of mine, told me that I DESERVE BETTER TREATMENT!

The very moment I heard that statement, I felt tears in my eyes, but I didn’t let them overflowed. As a young man, I shall not cry in the office. It is such a scene!

“Kalau lelaki yang macam tu, biar aje! Kau tau tak dia buat macam tu maksudnya dia tak jaga perasaan awak, tau tak? Kalau dia betol-betol sukakan u, dia mesti pilih awak! Kenapa dia tak pilih? Jangan pedulikan dia, jangan biar dia buat macam tu bagi awak. U DESERVE BETTER!”

That’s roughly what she said. She has been through all these. She has seen the same cases happening to her close friends. She told me: aku dah ada experience, that’s why I boleh macam tu. Biar aje! (Guess what, she is one year old younger than me… What to do, I am so reserved for wild events… I guess I should start now HIHI)

She left the position today, for a better pursuit, as a researcher on religion and bias, interesting topics. When everyone was in the office was like damned busy, both of us newbies can chit chat and play along like twins. 

Now, I need to be more independent and find a way to be colorful without the help from the powerful magical 7cm long tobacco stick. (Nope I am not a smoker and I don’t think I will try. The reason I said so is because the top performer in the company all smoke… )

I wished her luck. She came into my life to save me from so-called in-recoverable SOHAI break-up-ish moment of life. She left me with a tool, a mindset, a sense of confidence to hang on. 

She is the angel. A rather plump darker angel :-p