You hurt me a lot

“You hurt me a lot.”

This is what he Watsapp-ed me when I was chatting with a new-found fascinating “subject” (My apology Chaz for referring you as my “subject”, I take myself as a mad scientist and people around me are always subjects of my observation. )

I didn’t reply. I was thinking of ignore him. But later on, I composed a text message. Half way writing the message (I took quite some time), I thought: Why is it necessary to explain so much. Just text one sentences enough lah.

I have no idea what to reply seriously. If I reply something, he may be coming up with stuffs that will affect my decision, to avoid him. There was once I have sort of decided to be just-friend with him, meaning we won’t be texting and seeing each other that often. However, once I saw his sad face and heard the stuffs that he said, I terus go hold his hand and told him: Please don’t leave me. I will stay with you. 

No, no such history should repeat. I will just ignore him. Perhaps one message to him, ended with some notification asking him NOT TO contact me again.

No one can ever hurt us if we don’t allow anyone to hurt us. 

One thing I learned this relationship, don’t just talk, take action more. 

Zzz.