It has been day 5 we didn’t contact each other. Today I
really felt like texting him to explain to him my intention. I nearly did.
He could be sad because I didn’t reply his message. He could
be angry with me. Well, he blocked my FB. Does that mean something? Now I lagi
have no idea of his where about. Perhaps it will do me good as well, there is
no point trying to type his name in the search box anymore.
I wanted to reconnect with him. However, that would not be
rational. Once we got reconnected again, history will repeat itself. I will
still be jealous and I will feel unrest when he goes out with her. So there is
no point doing what kinda reconnection with him.
Plus, perhaps he will text her more, since now there is more
empty time slot now. At least she will feel relief when she realizes that I am
no longer in touch with him.
Perhaps he hates me, thus he will need her accompany to heal
that wound. When she is more around him, eventually their relationship will
build again.
I will never know if these hypothesis are true or false. As
long as I have done my part in preventing further damage, I guess I should be
proud of myself? Like I have been saying pretty much recently: we are just
living in our mere imagination. I think it will work, however he may not agree
with this.
I recalled that in order to wipe out one habit, u just need
1 week time. If that is true, I will occupy myself with stuffs for 2 more days.
I will hang in there
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