HEBI told me when I looked at other guys (who he thinks he has no matches to, like those who are taller, more muscular, more handsome, looks smarter), he will feel insecure and jealous.
Initially I still look at guys here and there. I mean like no harm mah... I supposed. Looking at things better than us will inspire us to be better. I see better stuffs as a benchmark for where I stood. If I felt I am in lower position, I will improve; if I seems better than them, then I will syok sendiri, yet, stll motivated to improve lah, seeing oneself ald can surpass some people. Haha
But then yesterday I saw one sharing something about the him not going to clubs because the bf doesn't like that. Oh COMMITMENT. Then I started asking stuffs about marriage and commitment on FB. It is a very interesting subject to discuss with.
Eventually, I thought, since HEBI doesn't like that, I think I should refrain from checking out guys, since he don't check out guys with he is with me, or I am not observant enough to notice that?
I don't say a thing when I check guys. But he will ask me to look at obviously gay people or people who checked me out, or may be him, since we walked together. Haha.
Commitment? Me? Can I? I think I can :-) But still, I am hanging out with someone who is not really sure of his feeling. How ah? Oh well, I don't mind at the moment I guess. I am gay and I am young, when I am older, perhaps I got more charisma, people will come lining up for me like how people line up for CHATIME?
So... Marriage and commitment and adultery and extra relationship punya relationship and dating and what else kinda "subject" am I gonna take up after uni life?
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