Mistake no.1: Early in the morning I was questioning his ability to wake up early in a rather kidding way, he asked me to stop the topic and said that he is serious.
Mistake no.2: He said no initially. But I was stubborn, I tried to smuggle him into the college. Eventually we got busted and he felt humiliated. I can feel that he wasn't happy about it.
I felt I did the greatest mistakes that can reduce this relationship into just-friends.
This is not the first time I did this sort of mistake. I felt so bad. I duno what to write now...
Half way I wrote stuffs on his FB message, then I erased it, I wanted to tell, but I am seeing him 2mrw, I don't wanna have a sad face or awkward moment.
I am lost.
I never felt so wrong in my life
Do you understand the pain of that u wanna say something, but then u tend to say something wrong, and u stop yrself from saying it, then it felt very sanfu inside, that u also felt that if u say nothing, he will feel that I am not seeing this issue seriously. Hebi, I am not as strong as you think. I am the weakest when I thought I will be losing someone I treasured. I duwan lose u.
I know writing it here won't make a change in him, but at least I can channel the emotion into here. No one wants a useless face now.
we all make mistakes. I think it's best if you honestly tell him how sorry you are when you meet him and talk about this (: *hugs*
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