如果的事？Too Ideal?

Currently I am stuck in a very complicated relationship with someone. In short, I cannot officially be with him because he is already with someone, and it seems this screwed up relationship has sparked some emotional thoughts within ourselves.

This guy I met, around 2 months ago. He claimed that he had great time with me and that he wanted to take care of me. Having someone saying this sort of stuffs to you is just awesome, sometimes till the extend of TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE! And somehow my inferiority or whatever horrible past with the horrible ex haunted me: THIS IS JUST TEMPORARY.

Yes, a lot of things are just TEMPORARY in our short life. Start from the privilages of being held in our parents arms when we were babies; being able to feel like REALLY smart when you get NO.1 in the class; being able to get naughty in the school like no body's business; being able go out with the person you like and so on.

Thus the question: what is ETERNAL? Is there anything that will last eternal? Will LOVE last? For how long?
Of everything in the world, suddenly I am afraid that I will not be able to find the right person. (but is there THE right person to start with?)

So and so claimed that he likes you, that he loves you, that he never regretted meeting you. Blah blah blah! How true is that?

Yes I am pretty indepedent in certain matters. I won't sit and cry for a solution. Blah blah blah! But still, I yearned of a guy, whom I can stay with, whom I loved dearly, whom I wished to see him at home after work, whom I can have dinner with most of the time, whom I can share the same bed, whom I can count on, whom I can look in the eye and tell him that: "I LOVE YOU AND I HAVE NOT REGRET IN ANY MOMENT OF MY LIFE HAVING TO HAVE MET YOU AND STAYED WITH YOU" before I end my short life here on earth.

Oh shit! Damnit! Just fuck it! Too ideal~

It is just some rubbish thought that I wanted to get rid of before I start revising the MANY rest of the notes lying below this laptop.

Even the psycho-ever-young clinical psychologist told me on FB that LOVE won't last, but then, having some hope is better than none right? It is just the stupid mind game, the mentality, the perception, the whatever Blah blah blah~

And thus an ideal song that comes with this piece of post:

我想过一件事
不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持
爱情的意思
像风没有理由
轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有
所谓的对与错
不管时间
说着我们在一起有多坎坷
我不敢去证实
爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持
也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服
我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的CD
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给你如果的事
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你