Looking for the bf. Come you come into my life faster?

Been occupied with work and a lot of mini issues now and then. It is like catching time in gym which I find pretty strange. Why do I need to go to the gym to work out?

But I digress. Certain things in life have been bothering me. It kept surfacing into my mind. (It has nothing to do with the SURFACE RT I am getting from the soon-to-be ex company.) Stopped having sex with him already, it does not make sense, I break away from the fairy land.

Took leave for fun today and I am alone in the house. (Not exactly though, need to do body check up lah, check my online account lah because sohai i go forget the password and username.) While I was cleaning my bed, suddenly I thought of my ex, which is on vacation with someone unknown. I quickly throw away the thought as it was not pleasant at all. Not that I yearn to go on vacation. Perhaps the emotional breakaway from formal that made me kept thinking of some companion for the day. I dont believe in quitting, there is only replacement or substitute.

Then I also thought of my gor whom never seem to plan to settle with anyone else. He kept things from me anyway, but nothing harmful. I wonder if he has loved someone so deep that he has decided to put his attention to work and ONS. If it is true that way, I have to say it is quite sad.

Back to me, I am thinking of looking for someone to settle with, to hang out with, to hug, to kiss, to share that emotion thingy (what u call? Bridge the emotion ah? Duno lah.) I am sure someone out there felt the same as well. I know myself, I am picky. I will find lots of reasons to go for a prime-gay. Idiotic.

I need to work on my passion. The new job is coming up and it is totally related to biomedical science. Not to say that I love all these but it is something new to play with.

Meanwhile, I really hope that someone came into myself, where I do not need to be afraid that I will eat out or he will eat out. I think I need someone where I can have breakfast and dinner with. I will eat and stare at him, smiling inside out. He will say I am crazy and I will happily admit it. I do not need to post on FB saying that I am hanging out with who and who. I do not need to brag about it. It will be subtle.

Cheers SKP. He will come one day, when SKP is ready for him.

Lastly, I find this song awesome. Merging something harsh (Darwin's law of evolution: Survival of the fittest) onto something romantic- relationship. 我会進化成更好的人。加油啊郑国培！

 

曲：蔡健雅 詞：小寒

我的青春 也不是沒傷痕
是明白愛是信仰的延伸
甚麼特徵 人緣還是眼神
也不會預知愛不愛的可能
　
保持單身 忍不住又沉淪
兜著圈子來去有時苦等
人的一生 感情是旋轉門
轉到了最後真心的就不分

有過競爭 有過犧牲
被愛篩選過程
學會認真 學會忠誠
適者才能生存
懂得永恆 得要我們
進化成更好的人

我的青春 有時還蠻單純
相信幸福取決於愛得深
讀進化論 我贊成達爾文
沒實力的就有淘汰的可能
　
我的替身 已換過多少輪
記憶在舊情人心中變冷
我的一生 有幾道旋轉門
轉到了最後只剩你我沒分


懂得永恆 得要我們
進化成更好的人