Shocked. The guy in the reflection.

Went to an interview. Tried my best to impress, to be fun, to present myself as a fun and interesting marketing guy. Unfortunately I screwed up my last part. According to insider news, they general product manager as well as the head of business liked me, but not the hiring manager. I broke down when I heard that. My mood was spoiled. I wept. I felt very tired. I have put too much expectation on this. It was like my golden chance. So near, yet so far. I could not take it.

This is a negative post.

I am not as strong as I thought. I am actually afraid of changes. Huge changes. Like working abroad. People asked me to go Singapore. I am afraid to lose the connection with my friends.

I am also afraid of challenges. I thought too much. I stop smiling. I have lost my confidence.

My fucky buddy told me to create my own torch. To find my own way despite the darkness, for ways are created by human, it won't fall from the sky. True enough.

I need to acknowledge that I ain't strong inside, I need to try harder, I need to stop blaming the situation, I need to be smart enough and kind enough. Cheers!

I am not flawless, and on the way to being perfect, I need to first admit my weakness.

*Emerald flame*