The gym was full of people. Yet, I was not in an aggressive mode. Perhaps after finishing 5Km in 25 min, I lost the spirit. Instead of listening to fast pace song, I was listening to emo songs by 动力火车 and some other slow pace songs lah.
I was the EXIT sign. I looked at the dark ceiling. Again, my mind idled back to previous events.
At first, we sat down and talked. I refused to see him again so that it is easier for him. The guy has requested him not to meet me again if they were to make their relationship- better. I agreed. He asked me not to remove him from my FB friend list and remain myself in the Subang Watsapp group. After much begging, I agreed as well. I sent him back, I hugged him, I told him to take good care of himself. My tears rolled down from my cheeks. It was just pathetic. I drove home from USJ singing emo songs. We did not contact after that, except he text me safe journey going back to SP for Hari Raya. He even knew that I took earlier leave.
A few days ago. I noticed that he has left the Watsapp group. I don't quite understand. But since I have not much connection with the rest, with much respectful words, I excused myself from the group for good.
People met because of faith. People disappeared because of many factors, and one of the them is deliberate avoidance. I do not need to put up a MISSING sign.
I have my life. I have met stepper guy. What's next? I can only live on :)
Do I hate him? Yes and no. Yes, I hated him because he has chose to comply to him. No, because he is just aftering what he has wanted. No hard feeling.
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