To fall to stand up

There are two parts to the title:

1. Malaysia 13th General Election: Thanks for one nerdy but sex-minded gay friend, I signed up as voters without really knowing it and hence I was disappointed with the notion of indelible ink. Yeap I posted a photo of my index finger as well. Back to the title, not to say fall actually. I am still looking to see if Anwar is taking any action towards the election commission. We have stories on sudden black-out, "imported" ballot box and foreign voters. The best part is, some of these are recorded and went viral on FB. Since the SPR reports to the Prime Minister's department, I am not surprise if they can't figure out that the washable ink contributes the least significant improvement to the election process. I am waiting to see who is coming up to investigate the foreign voters. With BERSIH and the Pakatan Rakyat's campaign, I am sure it has awaken up some political awareness of Malaysians. I used to hate politics because I had this idea that it is dirty. However, I came to know about how important it can affect us directly. Being ignorant about the politics will be translated to not caring who make the laws and how tax payer's money being spent: Will we gay people be punished? Will your hard earn money goes to another junk submarine?

2. XXX: I went a bit of emo today when I visited his FB's status. XXX liked his recent status. I hate to admit this. I chose not to drill into the matter. It gave me a feeling that I have lost. Come to think of it, there must be a reason why he is so into him. Perhaps he is more hardworking than me, giving him the thought of this building castle dream with him.

I felt loss. I find myself lying on the floor refreshing FB page; thinking someone will come to console me. I was again, naive. No one will help me unless I help myself. I have lost him, so what? BN has won, so what? The sky is gloomy and the temperature is low, so what? I am not earning a lot, so what?

Eventually I decided to stand up, wash up myself, get things organized and moved on, smile. Like the nation reformation, I don't see myself transforming into a better guy overnight. I had more pressure than before, hence I need some time to practice. SKP, gambateh!

Not quite relevant though. But oh well, lengzai with hot bod, why not?

Yeah, getting up, and growing up. Lesson learnt. Taken note. You wanna buy one Surface Pro? Haha