The first present from HEBI

Whenever life moment starts to get dry, I would open my wardrobe and pick up a card I kept in the pile of clothes.

I never really get romantic messages printed on paper. But HEBI made it for me.

I recalled that time I wasn't that closed to him yet. But he has shown initiative to hang out with me. It was roughly more than 1 month we knew each other. And one day he brought me out for some pre-Chrismast dinner at LOOK-OUT point, in which I recalled I mentioned it to him that I wished to visit that fancy spot one day. I thought it was some place further up abit from Wangsa Maju. It turned out to be a 1 hour drive from Titiwangsa.

He bought some group-on voucher thingy and he paid for the dinner. He ordered salmon and I ordered spaghetti. Too bad there was not candles. Haha.

To be honest, I totally fall for him that time. Where else u can get some guy doing all these for another guy? I know, it was pretty gay.

I noticed he brought along some paper bag. I thought it was to carry his DSLR. Of course when he refused to let me see the content, I got more curious. So when he went to the toilet. I quickly snapped it and take a quick look. I found another small paper bag with 3 roses.

W....T...F....!!!!

I recalled I did say that no one gave me roses in previous relationship. Nonetheless, I acted innocent. I am pretty good at doing that. Haha

During the dinner, I looked into his face more than the million lights of the KL city. I was mesmerized by him. He is the first guy. The first guy that did so much for me.

After we got onto the car, he allowed me to look into the content of the paper bag. Of course I told him my mischief. He said he wanted to see my smile. Oh...

Yeah he is the first one. And the first present, always give me some extra energy to strive. Amazing isn't it, just a piece of paper and some pieces of memory.

 THE card! He said he could have done better if given a longer period of time.

Thinking of all these, I wondered why when we talked about in case we ended up together, I cannot promise him that I will stay loyal to him. Well, not that I still wanna play around, but then people change and I cannot promise that I won't change. I guess, I should have told him that I loved him and bullshit future.

Behaving like couple, but isn't couple. I know, odd isn't it. Haha. Oh well, people do have fears and insecurity. But still, I am happy :-) I hope he is as well, at some point.