And so he told me for the second time that he wanted to calm down at the moment and then only he made decision. Now only I remembered that he told me before this, knock my knuckle head!
We have not been seeing each other for 2 weeks and my "thoughtful" brain generated some wild story of him sleeping with others. It was torturing for me. Mana tau later he told me that he was busy with his home-moving. I believed him and I started to be more positive. (But then he could have told me kan? Sigh...)
Somehow, no matter what sort of decision he made, I felt I can also handle it. It has been quite a while after the huge drama and I think I have sort of got used to it. Then I have decide to meet up with an uncle whom I have been chatting from time to time since 2 years ago, nothing fishy, just wanna make myself as frank and easy going as possible, as long as you can talk and decent, com'on. + I also get to bitch more about life with a designer gay friend, haha!
Nonetheless, I have decided to try out KL for my starting working life due to 2 reasons: I wanna grow without my family and because of him.
Days ago when I was working out in the gym, I heard some lady saying from the radio that: "You can always change for a better job, but then how often can you find a good person?" And so it reaffirmed my decision. I planned to stay working in KL, to try out if the relationship work out or not, provided if we are together lah, yeah, I am waiting for him.
I know on FB, he is still pretty close and romantic to her, I felt ah! My heart kena stabbed! But then I think I should give him the benefits of doubt lah: 4 years of relationship, say break then break meh? It wasn't like she has done some huge mistake or annoyed him pun, just that suddenly my appearance in his life made him think again, what he wanted more.
Eh but then am I slapping myself? Good person hard to find. They have been together for 4 years, isn't that a concrete reason that they find each other the right person?
I am laughing at myself... Why I didn't think of that before? Am I smart? I guess no. Haha. I guessed I would have died in NUS if I were to study there. So SKP, jangan overestimate yrself loh.
But still, I don't mind waiting, for how long, I tak tau. Will see :-) Dear Hebi, I know what to do geh. We will be friends now :-)
good one wait!! :) if got competitor, fight!! unless he states that his interest is not into you, bermati-matian ba.. but not to waste your time fully on waiting... open up yourself for options too! :) someone better/more suitable might just come along!! hehe.. good luck!
ReplyDeleteTulsy@ Sometimes, just sometimes, I tend to hide into the shadow when there is competition, especially in relationship, I would not try to pull all sort of stun to gain attention or what, that is not my style. This dude is still on the fence, I shall give him time, but then I also need to search for any potential back door. Don't wanna put too many eggs in one basket kan? And thanks, thanks :)
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