Yesterday I told him that I went out with some guy but then he said he is not feeling really good about hearing this. Yet he said that he cannot stop me because it is my rights. After all, I am not attached kan? Believe it or not, it was just some catching up with my gay friend. Did text him during lunch because usually I will gatal go remind him like a coo-coo bird clock that it is time for lunch and dinner ald. He replied :p
HEBI lend me this book written by 欧阳文峰 and I came across one statement that sort of reaffirmed what I have in mind before this.
The cover.
Starting from the second paragraph, I chincai paraphrase and summarize:
"The reason why most gay people have multiple partners is because not much wanted to put full HEART in a relationship which they think may not last."
It is understandable lah, since there is no marriage between guys in most corners of the world and gay bashing is still happening now and then.
But then if we don't believe in the relationship, no one will, we will have to step out first, give it a try, even if it didn't end up happily, we can still tell ourselves, we have done our best, we cannot control everything, we can only try to improve the situation. If we persevere, there will be positive results. Just like what Mr. Karate reminded me when I was doing my TUNEL assay, live the spirit of Thomas Edison!
HEBI, I am waiting for you to come back! No matter what it will be, I have done my best okay :-)
I believe in a long term relationship :-)
Ah... Let's go jogging shall we, I don't wanna lose to some protein hunks! Haha! And I discovered putting more weigh on the bar do shows fast results! NO PAIN NO GAIN!!! and next month will be Chern's NO PAINT NO GAIN! GAY GAIN! ACHA!!!!
And and and. I wanna bitch about all those Sultan and unfortunately, the Agong a.k.a. Sultan Kedah and some minister bit some stupid car punya plate number sampai up to millions, WTF people! I think they owe the rakyat some explanation. One side people no money for meals and what cibai development plan, then one side spending money like pouring water. I cannot tahan loh. Yes I should read more newspapers!
Just because gay rights aren't recognized isn't a reason for people to not want long term monogamous relationships. I think some people think like that. Some don't even think. And some can't think because they don't have a brain >_>
ReplyDeleteHahaha. I read about this number plate thing somewhere. The highest one was RM 520k. That's enough to cover my fees and books for the whole degree!
Not every has the exposure and some grew in such a dark background that totally close any chances of being wf the one they loved. If we can help to improve the situation, we try our best. To create awareness and hope by being the best of ourselves!
DeleteThen itu cibai news ah... Apparently sultans and agong dont TAKE money from the government. So just treat them as rich normal citizen, they have their rights to use their own money; and we will have our brains to see how brainless they can be.
RM250k huh? I can take up nearly 9 degrees of health sciences. Haha.
hmm. i never thought about it like that.
Deletethis sounds like the health promotion stuff where we need to educate people about diabetes and all that. if only there were leaflets and stuff to educate people about homosexuality..
I hardly doubt that its THEIR money. but oh well. and RM 520k. not RM 250k. medical degrees suck you dry.
Wah... not everyone is as lucky as u loh. Never thought of suicide ah, never thought yrself as someone sinful ah. Imagine what if u grew up in a family or neighbourhood that take gay people like monsters or insane people. Wah... the impact one gets since young. I have not experienced that before but there are stories about how people struggle with their sexuality. Kena buli lah. Later wanna suicide lah. Like one of my coursemates, he said he wanna stayed closeted to PREVENT unwanted attention. I was like WTF. I am alrite for the four consecutive years in UKM. Now baru he wanna slow slow come out.
DeleteThat's why there are events like Seksualiti Merdeka to promote the message that it is okay to be different.
Leaflets and booklets ah... u risk getting arrested or put on major newspaper loh. Haha. There are always alternatives :-)
Wah... u must be one of the rich kids loh. I supposed ur studying in IMU? Or oversea... I am not sure
Okay. I didn't mean to offend you at all. I just said that I never thought about it in this perspective. I might not have thought about suicide because I'm gay. But that doesn't mean that I didn't struggle with coming to terms with my sexuality or that I have never considered suicide. I have.
DeleteLike I said, I didn't give it much thought when I said leaflets. I was just generalizing the whole idea comparing it to something I'm familiar with. Like those leaflets they have for diabetes awareness programs.
And please, don't judge me before you even get to know me. I'm studying in KL.
Ah??? I shall apology lah if I sounded offensive to u? haha. But I mean no harm but I do judge sometimes.
DeleteLet me explain myself lah because I felt that there is a serious lack of intonation and body language to see whether I am joking or just speculating or judging. I didn't judge u as something bad. I just "speculate" that ur some rich kid because u can take up RM520 punya course. I cannot loh. And I consider myself as abit poor because my father left nothing for me after he retired, he is just the people who fix root top like that. Mom is doing her little business selling hamchimpeng and elder brother not much saving sebab sudah kahwin and second brother got money but he has his own dreams to fulfil lah apart from paying for some family expenses.
And when u say I have never thought about it, i thought the "IT" means the suffering of gay people lah. Mind me lah, my comprehension skill sometimes abit rosak one, just like my gaydar. Totally rosak one.
Ohya, I didn't feel any offensiveness in yr comment lah. Seriously I am bit shocked when u said u dun mean to offend me. haha.
About the leaflet part, aiya, just forget about it lah. I DID NOT THOUGHT ABOUT U BEING IGNORANT or what ah. I was just explaining saja cakap like no brain (I mean myself no brain) saja. Haha. Like u said, I didn't give much thought also.
In a nut shell, I am not into offending someone I dunno lah. Because usually when someone get angry or hurt, I will get shocked first. Haha.
Paiseh ah :-) Shake hands peace peace. Haha
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