Today was rather a shock for me somehow in the morning. In short, SOMEONE was trying to tell the others that I am dating some girl punya boyfriend. Fine. I wrote it so openly over here and if someone wanna talk about it, so be it lah. I think HEBI also won't be bothered pun. By the way, HEBI doesn't know that I wrote such things here. But then if he decided to hate me because of this, I see this as an opportunity to see how far he loves me lah. (I didn't tell him about me writing a blog because this cibai blog is an excellent outlet to rant like a bitch, and I am not that stupid enough to rant in front of him, I am not perfect okay. I also have a lot of things to rant, or else I really go hospital bahagia!) Ah... I think I got infected by Ipoh gor gor's spirit lah, which is something good I think. No need to think so much pun. And this blog is meant to be NO NEED TO THINK SO MUCH. Why think so much anyway kan? I have done it and I should admit it. But then telling everyone that I am dating someone ex-bf (YES, they go by that term and I just followed lah) is not part of my social experiment (telling people that I am gay is a social experiment). And that SOMEONE was in motive to pay back lah because I raised questions about his sexuality, but then when u publicly claim that ur bringing a "friend" along, then why still act straight? Sigh... Correct me if I am wrong, yeah finally I sort of respect others decision to stay closeted, but that way of staying closeted is not so smart to me. That's why I stayed open. Sorry and again, this blog is about NO NEED TO THINK SO MUCH. So I wrote this way.
Also a public disclaim over here, previously I am "evil" guy who go by telling my close friends that SOMEONE is gay lah. WAIT!!! Let me explain. Because that time in first year and second year and still now, I think being gay is nothing a big deal. I feel great about it, my friends are okay with me, and lagi I mixed around with a Christian straight guy that always talked about me having sex with guys and my butt got virus lah and, previously, I will get burned in hell which he told me that the temperature is even hotter than the sun. I wondered how he knew about the temperature thingy but then I digressed. At the end, I felt nothing bothered when I go to sleep on the college's rosak punya bed because I was just being myself, I expressed myself, the real person I am! I stalked guys and they stalked girls, and they are okay... I think. Or else we won't be still hanging for nearly 4 years kan?!
So yeah, although SOMEONE go to temple and sembahyang and meditate lah... Aiya... that's why I like SAIYUKI's Genjo Sanzo, if u know his character lah.
Yeah, I finished ranting liao. Foo...
For those who wanna bitch about me, bitch lah. I know I have done mistakes and I am not gonna cried, if karma comes, come lah. Instead of using the energy to cry, why not I use the energy to keep myself stable when challenges come.
Ohya, am I a good person. Well, up to you lah. Just like my Ipoh gor
gor, always kept telling me that he is a bad guy lah, sleep around lah,
but then in personally, damned jaga me, share with me some life stories
and always belanja me makan and drink because his salary damned cibai
banyak!!! Did I had sex with anyone else after I knew HEBI, HELL NO!!!
Time to hit the gym and build strong body, because as a powerful gay young men, I should be physically and mentally strong. Thanks Darwin for inspiring me on SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST!
To dear SOMEONE, I wanna apologize. I am sorry. I am tried with the game I started ald.
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