I was just saying

When I said that you don’t need you to treat me that good, I don’t really mean it 100%; part of me hope that you would say something like: I treat you good because I wanted you to be happy, something like that way. 

Unfortunately, that part of me was disappointed lah.

I asked you to treat me as friend, just friend, not friends with benefits. 

After that I have an urge to tell you that I like you, that I don’t feel well saying that last message, that I wasn’t entirely honest about me wanting us to be just friends. But then I stopped after that, I thought: If my affection wasn’t strong enough to let u feel it, it makes no difference, and texting this sort of message will just be mere lips services.

When it comes to relationship, usually I am pretty passive. I will wait for the response of others, then only I act. I don’t want to be disappointed again. But then, if I do nothing, if I always wait, what if he is waiting as well? Sigh… Ai SKP. How ah?!