The bad bad day

Called me moody or whatever~ Today was really a tough day to begin with!

First I got myself into 4 hours of lecture and ended up getting zero stuff out of it! Yeah, I am blaming myself for not preparing anything before the lecture, but I ain’t gonna spare the fat ass for talking nonsense in front; dragging a 30 minute lecture into a 1 hour 30 minutes lecture! Fuck u! Wasted my time! And my apology for the second lecturer, I am sure u realized that everyone in the lecture hall understood nothing more than you were mumbling something in front, which I think could have been very informative if you illustrated everything systemically on a white board. Again, I understand that you’re not capable of teaching 200 plus undergraduates by using a white board, but I am sure something could have been done! We are in a university where creativity flows (ideally~) for God’s sake!

NAGASAKI BOMBING! I was like so naively convincing myself that I got “A” for industrial technology, which in fact the possibility would equal to Williaw was in love with me since Form 1 (Williaw is a straight guy whom I fell in love with at first sight… still pretty much wondering how deep was the love actually~) And guess what? I got “B”! Okay fine~ I am not surprised anyway. But still, I allow myself to make a scene in the lecture hall, shouting around like a dimbo.

Next! It’s Advanced biomolecular’s turn! The conversation went about like…

“Tell me I got “A” for it!!!”

“Oh, you got “C-”…”

“… …”

 I was crestfallen for that moment… I was bombarded with all those negative thoughts:

“You’re just a useless being….”

“He got himself someone and yet he is still so great on his studies… and you? Mou Ngan Tai~”

“You’re just wasting your fucking time in this uni!”

“Why you stop excelling in your studies? Have you become that dumb?”

I learned nothing for the entire day, which is totally pathetic! Fell like quitting uni! I can no longer bear the non-existing success and satisfaction in my uni life! This is seriously sad!!! Oh man~

But then I reminded myself to put an end to the whole drama. I told myself: EVEN THE ENTIRE WORLD HAS GIVEN UP ON ME, AS LONG AS I HAVE NOT GIVEN UP, I SHALL RISE AGAIN!

Eventually I did something that I felt useful by helping out with the Japan Tsunami funding-raising in a night market. Fu~ I won’t give up okay! I won’t give up!

“U better not give up or i will ( fill in the blanks) u.”

Haha, dear Siew Wei, thanks for saying this. You’re like the sole supporter, still giving your best cheer at the far far away seat~

 

Drafting for the Piala Seri Endon 2011 during Advanced Biomolecular lecture~ 

GRAPHIC GOES GREEN - ECO bag design competition 2011

Been rushing like hell for the design after my self-indulging session at Times Square playing arcade games and trying new desserts at SweetChat :-) Plus, I bought my first ever boxer by L'oumo at RM21.50 at Parkson Sg. Wang! (I know it's just so not cool to have only bought myself underwear for the ever fucking first time at the age of 22.5~) Quite happy working on the design while wearing it. Haha~ Eventually I managed to chincai finish it 30 minutes before 12am midnight so that I do not get disqualified!

Going green thingy theme~ I have chosen green and white since only 2 colors can be used.

The idea of the design is to "HEAL THE WORLD" (directed copied from Micheal Jackson's Song title, Hehe~) by going green, as indicated by the choice of color. The world map (if u can recognize it lah~) was mapped out using different languages of the single word GREEN, meaning that the noble effort should be taken by everyone no matter where u originated! In fact, everyone should contribute!

I have modified the design after noticing that every artwork was on this template~

What the hell! I don't even know that I need a template!!!

But then, don't bother lah~ Happy~

Ohya, did I mention that my new boxer is in green and white too?!

Such a co-incident, am I right?! Haha

New Year New Resolution :-)

I made a point to myself in CNY 2011 that I must produce something art-ty just to make use of my little talent in art (so that it would not berkarat!) And here it is, I came up with some message for everyone. Hehe~

 

The initial drafting~

Using a small piece of paper as my palate~

The Alpha water color I have been using since I started attending art class back in Form 1~

Save mommi nature! Or else, save your ass~

(I believe in the whole go-green thingy: recycle, reuse, and reduce. Seriously, if we do not start doing anything better for mother nature, we are gonna go to hell! Don't forget that we are counting on her to stay alive.)

Live life to the fullest/ fool-est~

(No matter it's fullest or fool-est, as long as you don't regret it, go ahead! Live for ourselves!)

p/s: The definition of my version of "fool-est" has nothing to do with sleeping around and posing yourself in risk of STD~ 

Eat with minimal killing lar~

(According to Tzu Chi, adopting a vegetarian diet would be the fastest way to heal the nature in terms of less energy consumption and less green-house gases production. However, little people possess such awareness and believes, hence here goes the "Eat with minimal (animal) killing" motto~)

Sleep on time zzzz....

(I am still very puzzled with the undergraduates from medical health as mostly sleep very very very late! What is the point of learning on how to cure your patients while you do not practice a healthy lifestyle?! Our body starts to do house-keeping around 11pm to clear all those rubbish stuck here and there, hence it is smart to lay down and give way for your body to rest.)

Make LOVE! Not war~

(Everyone likes to have sex... I guess~ Haha!)

 

Work out! For it creates wonders~

(Well, no one hates a well-toned body shape, hehe! And plus, you live longer~ And and and, you need not to buy those over exaggerated outfits to look nice~ 3 birds with one stone, why not?!)

I always heard "New year new resolutions" and other sort of stuffs signifying "a new beginning" de lah. But for me, it's not necessary to wait 365 days for that. Everyday can be a new day! Every hour can be a new hour! Every minute can be a new minute! And every second can be a new second!

The question is: How desperate you wanna move on? And how fast you can do it?

Sunday~ A new day! What should I do leh? Hehe

Riding in the rain

My family has subscribed to Chinese newspaper years ago and now there’s no need to rush to the nearest news stand to get a copy every day. Today, like usual, the indian man sent the newspaper to the doorstep with the help of her wife. Well, when people send us something, go and grab it lah! The type of momentary give-and-take contact with this pair of husband and wife team leaves me little impression on them. However, this time I get a better look at them as they need to collect the fees. Apparently, nobody was free in the house except me. So I made myself useful by paying RM38.20 (I have no idea of the exact delivery charge I was paying.)

The husband was doing the driving and the wife is doing the delivering and money collecting. And then I started to think: All these newspaper distribution thingy actually started around 6-7pm (I think). This means they may be working in the morning till 5pm perhaps; after little rest, they would need to start their second bread-winning again. Would you do these daily?

They gave me a strong feeling of the determination for a better life as they are looking into other ways to earn more money; perhaps for better education for their beloved children, or saving for the future. The most important part is that they are doing it in a legal and rightful way. Some people are just too afraid to work more, so they will be easily subjected to illegal stuffs such as drug-trafficking, prostitution, gambling and more.

Not only this, the man is so lucky that he has married the right woman. Well, she could have stayed at home and watched TV instead. She really loves her man perhaps. Even though it’s raining, she still followed her husband to help out. 

The man could have done the job on his own. Delivering newspaper is not some very tough work after all. But working alone could be lonely and tedious. It is very fortunately for him to have a wife who would stay by his side no matter in good or bad time. 

Frankly, I don’t know them personally. All these stories are just some works of my imaginative mind. Well, who knows, it may be just as what I have said-a pair of lovely spouses riding on a motorbike in search of a better life…

At the end of the day, people are just trying to stay alive; while for some other people, a better life perhaps.

Living as a People-Like-Me

Back in a few weeks ago, when I was sad and kept thinking of all those break-up issue, a bunch of long-abandoned friends come into my life again, or shall I say that I start to notice them again… Somehow I realized I haven’t really spent quality time with them for quite a while already… Seriously, I have no idea how long… perhaps a year I guess although we are course mates.

And seriously I am pretty proud that I have straight friends who are not acting strange towards people like me (PLM instead of PLU? Haha~) On the last beautiful Saturday, we went to swimming in the morning. And fuck! that I still felt that I can get drown in a pool that the water level is around my collar bone~ Shit! I did entertain them by acting like an idiot in the pool, as return to their kind heart in allowing (not asking) me to join. Hehe! Anyhow, the whole decent morning activity took away half my pain :-)

A few days back during the lunch time, I talk about my break-up story with this best friend of mine. Actually I got a bit of issue with him as he is too into his stream of papa Christian and sometimes remind me that I will be burned in hell as I am practicing my gay life wor~ Anyhow, though with a I-am-just-listening-to-your-story face, he did console me after teasing me that I have been fooled by my ex. I am pretty touched in a way that he didn’t boycott or kept away from me all this while even though he is so into his religion (sometimes as I see lah… He kept reading bibles whenever he has time but he say that strayed cats and dogs should be “banished”… Huh?!)

Rewinding back to a few months ago, there is this joke between me and my other best friend (Let just call him Mr. Taekwondo, as he is really into this martial art) that I find it very funny, still.

Me: U guys always like to have sex with big-boobs girls! Why ah? So syok meh? Soft soft geh~

Mr. Taekwondo: Aiya, look who is talking, u mah oso like guys with big chest!

Me: Eh… very true! Hihi~ 

(Yeah, I like muscular guys~)

I knew that all along, I have been labeled as “the weird guy” most of the time. I shouted Chao Cibai around in Uni; I dyed my hair like a pirated DVD seller in pasar malam; I do not copy complex things from Dr. Chan’s lecture; I do not wear my underwear; I preferred to force myself to eat vege as I don’t feel like killing; and I like to mimic Ash Crimson’s moves from The King Of Fighters. Sampai my family suspected that I have studied and thought too much (which in fact is bullshit) till I become sot-sot dei. I just have a different set of ideas, that’s all. And I called myself gay because I like guys; apart from that, I have no difference that any human being.

What I wanted to highlight here is that, I am really very proud of these bunch of berbulu dan bertanduk straight guys as they see me as the same person as they are. My Uni life would be so dull without them, even though I dared to say that UKM KL campus would be even boring without me! LOL~