In short, busy preparing last minute powerpoint for thesis result presentation. All of the sudden, the debt of work from previous honey moon period forced it way back to me now (better than REALLY last minute lah!!!) This cibai TUNEL assay kit baru sampai like last 2 weeks. Imagine doing something I have ZERO experience and exposure to??? Well, basically everyone is doing something like this pun. So yeah, playing with all those microliter enzyme and buffer and ice...
Because of the minute amount of solution (0.1ml), I need to use paraffin wax to confine a small area of reaction. Sudah payah you know. Lni Lnio A! But then I am pretty proud of myself for using paraffin, since I don't have the what water resistant pen, which is mentioned in that protocol.
eventually I pun duno what I am looking into the microscope pun. All blue... and my sama-sama-enjoy-life-like-me punya supervisor suggested that I have been watching too many blue film... WTF! (Yeah she knows I am gay and can really joke on it.) Seek help from the chubby Dr Chan then lagi teruk, now I felt like I need to dig into programmed cell death. Autophagy ah... necrosis ah... Apoptosis ah... OMG! Dr Zariyantey, I ald buang the notes lah!
Turquoise
coloration from Methyl Green Counterstain, but then I am expecting
apoptotic cells in deep brown coloration wor... That's why I got pening;
but then Dr Chan said that it is okay, just report TAK ADA APOPTOSIS
lah. Okay then fine.
Btw, this is retina, the layer inside the eye, without it, we see nothing at all.
Anyway, was chatting with supervisor after stress session (yeah we share the same thing, when stress liao terus MAKAN junk food and go shopping spend money sort of!) and apparently, she is okay with politics; I mean politics as in human-human relationship thingy. Like last time u treat me makan pizza, now I will give yr student ph7 punya air suling. Wow... Looks like I also need to embrace this adult game. Yeah, I think politics are some adult toy. It is so manipulating.
And talking about politics in which you may need to smile smile to entertain others so that u get what you wanted, suddenly I thought of Genjo Sanzo from SAIYUKI, who walk on his path without being bothered by others, anyone that obstruct his way, he will kill! Well, provided that I am really pandai lah. What to do! YES HIDUP GAY! I AM GONNA BE STRONG AND PANDAI!
And lastly, I missed HEBI so much. Felt so sorry that I can't make it for lunch with him this afternoon because I was discussing my work with Dr. Chan and Dr Yanti at the same time. Oh lord! Eventually, when I replied him, he ngam ngam sent me a message telling that he is going back ald lah. Suddenly wanna cry that time. My distorted thought that he was angry, then tiba tiba emo. But the retained rationality tells me that if he were to be angry with me when I am bz dealing with my studies, HELL YOU GO! Anyway, there was nothing, he asked me NOT TO apologize as there is nothing apologize. :p
Ah... bz bz. HEBI going Taiwan Trip with his ex-gf. I know that he still loves her somehow. After all, it has been nearly 4 years. I told him to see if things work out between them during the trip. I know he is torn between me and the ex-gf, I can't really help me much in making decision apart from stop being a drama queen. Sigh... (not a sad sigh, just a after-all sigh) even if HEBI got back with the ex-gf, I guess I can handle it as well lah, I will just cry a day or two, then emo 1 or 2 week, I will be up and going, haha, after all I still have my flings :-) Ah going back to THESIS! LNI LNIAO A!
Still positive still positive!
ps: LNI-LNIAO-A means "your mom's..."
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