HEBI

It has been the 5th month we have known each other and we have never actually quite failed to meet each other every single week. Even back in the Chinese New Year period, he came to visit me in Sungai Petani and gave me a mixture of jolt and puzzlement when he strode into the deserted Tesco Selatan in Sungai Petani (Yeah! There are 2 Tescos in Sungai Petani; one located at the northern part and the other at the southern part.)

Nonetheless, the fact that he is still staying under one roof with his "girl friend" (seriously I have no idea how to categorize her status, he claimed that both of them is no longer bound in relationship but he cannot seem to be able to let her go because they have been 3 years together; I somehow see myself and the "lelaki simpanan" lah. I know... E-yew...) made him unable to be officially single. Yeah lah I know, kinda mixed up kan, if this were an issue in the office or work related matter, I would have forced him out of an answer. But still, this is relationship and human matters, I felt that this is no monkey business; he is in struggle. He prefers to let things flow by itself; but he also understand that it is not fair for me. I mean we have been doing things that couples are doing, at least that is what I felt lah. If I were to force an answer out of him, I thought that I would have been selfish (because I have been thinking about my own insecurity instead of him).

Somehow, since we are not officially together, we also felt odd to use the pronounce DEAR; instead we used HEBI. (OMG, the reason I wrote this is because I felt abit emo about it but now it felt like something jubilant pulak? Haha) HEBI means 虾米 in Hokkiean. The came-about of this term was once I was in a pretty down mood and he drove me to Genting Klang for dinner. We set down in a pan-mee shop and he asked me whether I wanted HEBI. Before that I was in a pretty grumpy face, but he put a smile on face (plus a giggle) when he said that in a childish accent. HEBI HEBI :-) It was back in a I-have-forgotten-time, but definitely within the 5 month time loh.

(Oh dah sampai Auto-city! I am writing this on a TRANSNATIONAL bus, I supported TRANSNATIONAL like how some rakyat supported BN. Haha)

Supposedly it something sad lah, but then again, the more I think, I just felt happy... Ain I stupid?

I am gonna be out of the varsity in another 2.5 months time and he will be out in another month. I duno what will happen in the future,I don't dare to think, somehow. 

Hopefully, in the near future, when the alarm start buzzing at 6:45am, I would be able to stop it on time so as to not wake the tiny hunk beside me, get up and paste a notepad on a cup of salt water saying: Good morning HEBI, another day to work loh, gambateh! Signed, HEBI. (because he sleeps more than me and late than me, most of the time :p)

(Nevermind if Malaysia recognized gay marriage, no one cares anyway, unless some people wanna buat pandai "Oh we wanna protect the religious  institution of the country" like now loh, bullshit lah. People don't just suddenly become gay for nothing, it is a great deal of challenge ahead okay, lagi lagi if ur a Malay in Malaysia. Foo... Things just can't get more interesting in Malaysia, for the gay scene.)

Posted this one day before I wanna go back KL. Gila punya orang (I mean myself lah...)

Esok boleh jumpa HEBI liao :P