Surprisingly, I did not feel paiseh and I think he was quite comfortable with me as well. The one day date was really memorable and I thought I have fallen for him. He is handsome (but with some acnes) and generally good in character.
But too bad, he has a girl friend. I went home and browsed over his FB to find that girl- and I think I found her - very beautiful and elegant. All of a sudden, felt like saying: Wanita, ancaman gay! (adapted from the controversial WHI talk show's stupid title: Pondan, ancaman wanita.) LOL!
To some, it may be called 公平竞争 -"a fair competiton", but still I find it unethical. From previous experiences and horrible stories I heard, I have made it clear to myself not to get into any other's relationship, be it gay or straight! I know I would be going to hell according to some religious interpretation (NOT THE RELIGION OR THE GOD! I AM TALKING ABOUT THE INTERPRETATION, BECAUSE NO ONE SEEN GOD TAKING A LIFT DOWN FROM HEAVEN TO TELL HUMAN THAT HOMOSEXUALITY IS A SIN!!!) I don't feel like going further down to the basement of HELL!!! LOL
The affection I experienced today seemed rather familiar actually. I recalled the moment I met my last ex back in a few months ago, and now Mr moon-face, till today- Mr Duno-what-to-call-him, the feelings seem to be quite the same- puppy love-like.
What is the point of starting a relationship so fast? Do I know him well enough to make first move? Was he hiding something under a facet? But he seemed genuine! Oh well, people changes... and then the distance factor (because I planned to go back to the north to work, I wanna savor my mom's cooking!!!)... the communication... blah blah blah. Lagipun, he just stepped into his gay side of him- most probably will change when he meet more people.
Tired of drama liao loh, wanna take a rest in relationship. Gonna say NO to Mr moon-face, and the most important of all, big NO to Mr Duno-what-to-call-him.
I need to surpress my foxy gene! Haha~ Wah, felt like Naruto suppressing the nine-tailed pulak! LOL
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