Questions without answers

Have you ever loved me before?
Or you were just confused back then?
Was I just a rebound?
Are you dating someone now?
Have I done anything wrong?
Why you keep yourself away from me?
Is there something you wanted to tell me?

Again, I was haunted by the past: the time when we were still together. The relationship has ended pretty abrupt. I cannot figure out the reasons behind. And thus, I wanted answers! I wanted to call you so much! I wanted the truth!

The last time I called you, I knew you went blank and kinda sounded excited. Are you excited the fact that I still care for you? If you were, why our conversation lasted so short, compared to the time before we were together? I thought we could be friends, but I was sure that you were treating me as someone else. Who am I to you at the present? Am I a friend? Or am someone whom you wanna avoid for unknown reasons?

At the same time, why are you not replying my messages? Why you switched off your cellphone in the morning? You said you just wanna be alone... Why? Is there anything I can help, as a friend? Or will my presence just make things go more complicated?

Do you still have feelings towards me?
Do you...

My mind will soon go crazy if I don't end this torture soon! For that, I shall, too, give each others more space and time to settle whatever shit in between.

Perhaps... some questions are just better off without answers. Or may be... it's not the time for me to have the answers, for the impact may be too much for me to handle... Even if I get the answers, will they represent the truth?

I did not call you...